Wow. I just looked at my post "Casual Observations and a Confession" and was struck by how negative I was...about motherhood, about job-hunting, about my health. I seemed pretty down on life in general. For anyone wondering (or concerned), I am truly back to my same old giddy-and-slightly-colorful self. I guess I was Lauren-minus-some that day. I'm good now.
As I've gotten older, I have started to realize something kinda spectacular (to me, at least). All of the people I used to find so cool, so sophisticated, so I-totally-wanna-be-them-or-at-least-be-friends-with-them-so-maybe-some-of-their-coolness-will-rub-off-on-me...well, they're actually just as nerdy as anyone else (meaning me). Really. I'm not going to name any names, so as to protect the nerdy, but the more years I put behind me, the more I realize how "the same" we all are. Like, a guy I know who has always impressed me with his urban sophistique, made a complete and utter ass of himself in front of a beautiful woman who not only had no interest in him, but was married to boot. Or, for example, some of my most hip gal pals are addicted to reality TV crap like "The Real Housewives of..." and "Keeping Up With the Kardashians." And then there's my friend who enters into strange forays of baby talk when he starts to whine about something. Not to forget my very smart, attractive, funny girlfriend who's got everything going for her, except for the fact that she walks a bit like a duck. And perhaps, most mind-boggling are those uber-cool friends who I have secretly admired most of my adult life, who I have discovered have been trying to impress ME, the nerdiest of them all. What a shocker that's been. In a lot of ways, it's been a bit of a letdown to find that the rockstar status I have ordained upon many of my friends is really just a big facade. I mean, if these jet-set cosmopolitan types who have amazing jobs, travel to distant places and lead incredibly interesting lives are as nerdy as me, then who will I live vicariously through? On the other hand, feeling a little sub-par to my friends because I can't keep up isn't so great either, so it's also a little vindicating to know that their lives are not quite as fabulous as they seem (not to say that my friends aren't fabulous, because they are...but you know what I mean).
Anyway, I fully recognize that I remain the biggest nerd on the block, just by the sheer fact that I've spent the last twenty minutes blogging about undercover nerds. So, no need for anyone--ANYONE--to comment on the very many ways that yours truly exemplifies nerdiness. Trust me, I already know each and every one of them.
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No need to apologize for sounding negative - we all have those days, and personally I would much rather hear the reality of that than how perfect someone's life is 100% of the time - this is the real world!!! By the way, I meant to comment on Bryony's pics a few posts back - gorgeous!
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