On Adam's and my first date, he nearly got walked out on because he made the mistake of telling me I could never be in the military. Of course, the strong, feminist woman in me immediately flared up, ready for a fight (or shall we say,
a verbal exchange of ideas?) right in the middle of the Mexican restaurant. After seeing the crazy look of one hundred years of Women's Suffrage in my eyes, Adam sheepishly explained that he was trying to compliment me--he could never see me in the military because he'd never seen a woman as attractive as me amongst the ranks. I was immediately smitten and flattered, and all the hardcore Gloria Steinem tendencies melted away. So that was 1999.
He is SUCH a liar.One of the first things I noticed upon my arrival in Virginia last week was how many gorgeous female classmates Adam has. No, I don't mean attractive-considering-they're-in-the-military gorgeous, I mean, drop-dead, popular-girl-in-high-school gorgeous.
These are the women he's been hanging out with for the last three months?? While my jealousy streak has definitely subsided over the last ten years, being pregnant has set my hormones (not to mention my boobs, my butt, my belly and anything else that has the capacity to expand and swell) off the charts. I became really self-conscious about whether the woman Adam was introducing as his wife could ever measure up to these stunning ladies. I stood there looking at their perfect skin while thinking about the recent onset of pimples that have plagued my cleavage (whoever heard of pimply boobs?). One woman tossed her perfectly beautiful silky brunette mane while I irritably thought of my in-between-stage hair that's too short to be long, and too long to be short.
By the end of day three, I had my breakdown...or was it a meltdown? This included me falling into a heap on Adam's lap as I bawled about my ever-expanding body, how unsexy I felt, and how I hoped he would stick around if I got a stretch mark. He tried to mask his smirk, but I could tell he thought I was pretty ridiculous. He kept saying, "Uh..honey, you're
pregnant. I think there's something in the rule books about you gaining weight when you have a turkey growing in your body!" I have fought with my weight for years, and had a borderline (probably stepped over that line a few too many times) eating disorder when I was a teen/young adult. Body image is a major issue for me, but I thought I had tackled it a long time ago. However, the
image of my body in the mirror, changing before I was ready for it to, has made me realize otherwise. After kissing my forehead (my favorite thing) and holding me as long as I needed him to, and then a little longer than that, Adam promised he'd love me, belly fat, stretch marks and all. "After all," he reminded me with a wink, "I'm not going to be this studly forever either. Pretty soon the rest of my hair will be gone and my butt will be sagging to my knees."
Grin.The trip out to see Adam was great in all, though. He felt Wee Willie kick and move and tumble which was amazing for me, as I had been waiting for weeks to be able to share that with him. We took a 2-hour hike along the Rivanna Trail on the University of Virginia campus, and saw a flock of bluebirds fanning themselves, several chickadees doing acrobatics in the trees, heard a cacophony of crows overhead, and we flushed a huge hawk from the forest understory. Kika, Adam and I were completely wiped by the end, but we settled in with a steamy cup of hot chai and snuggled under blankets in the warmth of the hotel room.
Superbowl Sunday didn't mean a whole lot to me, since I didn't have a team to cheer for, and the USA Channel was showing a 17-hour marathon of "House". So, after snagging some pizza and goodies from the hotel dining room, we settled in bed for 6 straight hours of Dr. House and staff. It was awesome! Even Adam, who usually gets tired of things like that, didn't complain once. All he asked was that we could flip back to the game to check on the score. Luckily, he didn't miss the game-winning pass that clinched it for the Steelers. It was like last year's Superbowl all over again.
Wednesday, Adam graduated from the Army JAG school. My mother and sister drove down 2 hours for the occasion and it was a lot of fun. Mum and Shannon made fun of my belly (they insisted I was sticking it out, trying to make it seem bigger than it is...little do they know!) and we caught lunch at a local buffet afterward. It meant so much to me that my family loves Adam enough to make the trip down to see him graduate. I know it meant a lot to him, too. After the graduation, Mum, Shannon and I spent about two hours looking at various people's Facebook pages; they particularly liked the "insert-your-face-into-another-person's-body" thing that my sister-in-law and Adam's friend Michael had done. It's weird and disturbing but tons of fun, too.
That night Adam took me to a UVA v. Boston College basketball game. UVA just couldn't top BC, and we were happy to leave the sour spectators by the end. Wee Willie was having a go at it, though, punching and kicking in time to the UVA band and cheerleaders. We laughed at our future little sports nut.
As we so often (okay, let's just be honest here, and say
always) do, Adam and I slept in way too late on Thursday morning, when he had to have me to the airport, which was 1 1/2 hours away, by 11:30am. Oh, and did I mention we both still had to finish packing? For me, packing was just a few clothes I'd bought while in town; for Adam, that meant 2 1/2 months of his life. He had done the lion's share the night before, but that "little bit" he'd left for Thursday morning ended up taking over an hour to pack up and deal with. We drove 90 miles per hour down the interstate (which one never does in Virginia, being that it is definitely a "police state") to get me to the airport on time. And on time we did, although there were no spare moments for tears or long hugs good-bye. Just a quick kiss and a twinge of extreme sadness and then I was hustling Kika in her carrier and my luggage to the terminal. I managed to check my luggage, get Kika and myself through security, and arrive at my gate in record time. I called Adam breathlessly to tell him I was fine.
But I was bummed...I missed him already, I was going back to cold and snowy Michigan, and my little holiday with him was over. The last thing I wanted to do was talk about my cute, well-behaved little dog, which is exactly what everyone in the airport wanted to talk about. When I was boarding my flight from Richmond to Detroit, weighed down with kennel, big heavy winter coat and carry-on items, a woman in the aisle started barraging me with questions: "What's in there? A cat or a dog?" I was still trying to navigate the narrow aisle, not bump into any of the seated passengers with Kika's kennel, and stow my belongings so those behind me could pass. I was really irritated that she wouldn't wait until I was settled to interrogate me, and so decided to ignore her. As I was still trying to get myself sorted, she started poking me to get my attention. I continued to ignore her, occupying myself with my carry-on luggage. After avoiding her further by getting involved in a phone call with Adam, I finally had to deal with her once cell phones were no longer allowed to be used. I looked at her, annoyed, and finally, said, "It's a dog." She didn't get the hint, and pressed on, "What? Like a little Yorkie or something?" "No," I replied, "a terrier." With that, I turned away from her and pretended to fall asleep. Maybe I was being a bitch, but she was being an
annoying bitch, so I didn't feel so bad about it.
Once we landed in Detroit, she couldn't just leave me alone; instead she asked if I had drugged Kika to keep her quiet through the ride. I was repulsed by the idea. I flatly responded, "No" and then packed up my things to leave the plane. Once I got to my layover gate, I found out they had cancelled my flight into Lansing. However, it had been rebooked for the same departure time, although the gate attendant didn't realize it. After convincing her that, indeed, the new flight was scheduled to leave the same time as the cancelled flight, and yes, I most likely belonged on the new flight, Kika and I sat down. I let her out of her kennel to stretch her legs and eat. She loved the clementines my mother left for me. But of course, Kika, the clementine-eating dog that was wearing a diaper attracted a lot of attention. A woman who was sitting next to me at the gate exclaimed, "Oh, what fun! I've never travelled with my dog before." I very sourly responded, "It's not that much fun." She looked surprised, then asked why. "You tend to get way too much attention," I responded, then added, "No offense." She looked thoughtfully off into the distance, and for a moment I thought,
Okay, Lauren, she did not deserve that. But relying on my sad-because-my-husband-left-me-for-2/12-months-while-I'm-pregnant defense, I decided to let it go and call Adam instead.
The flight to Lansing was uneventful, but as we were deboarding, I heard the same woman from the gate exclaiming how impressed she was by my dog's calm travelling demeanour. I felt a twinge of guilt that I had been so rude to her at the gate, but was embarassed, so I didn't turn around at her comment. Once in the terminal, I noticed a familiar face sitting in the waiting area--one of the professors who works in the same building I do. I immediately called out his name to say hello. He stood up to greet me, to meet Kika, and to tell me he was waiting for his wife to arrive. Blood drained from my face, because I just
knew who his wife was going to be. As soon as he said, "There she is now!" I didn't even turn around, but rather hot-footed it toward the ladies' room to seek shelter. I tried to stay in there as long as possible to avoid running into them again, but eventually I had to come out to get my luggage. Sure enough, standing right by the baggage claim was the professor and his wife, who was the same woman I'd been rude to at the gate at the Detroit airport. I apologized to her for being so rude, and mumbled a feeble excuse for my behavior. She graciously waved it away, but I realized how important it is to never, never be rude to someone flying into the same airport as you. You never know what your connection to them might be.
So now it's Friday, and a long day of work is over. Adam is in Georgia now, having dinner with some old friends of ours before he heads down to Ft. Benning tomorrow. I will head home and deal with Kika and House and my routine once again. Welcome home, Lauren.